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I hate it when people turn into assholes out of nowhere. Especially when you thought you were really good friends.
Nothing else pisses me off more than this.
Fuck you. Sorry for ever trying. 

Whatever. Ill get over it.

Ive been good lately ! Really positive despite a couple of wierd situations going on around me, but its fine ! Because things always get better, right ?

I should start updating more.

Me and David are great. I feel like I found my best friend again. I have him in my life again. And sometimes Ill think about how the past really bothered me. How unhappy I was sometimes when I was with him. But Im trying to put that all behind me. Weve learned, weve learned to just Communicate with each other and whatevers on our minds to just say it ! And not hold it in, because before, It got us nowhere. I can tell him anything and everything and act like ME around him and make jokes and he'll laugh or join along, and it wasnt like this before. 
I think were both happy to just be part of each others lives again and want to enjoy it and just be happy and not worry about unimportant things.
Im Happy.

In other newss, I got a car, which im hopefully getting next week because its getting fixed now. School is good. Couple more weeks left and on too summer ! Cant wait.

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My mom goes into surgery tomorrow morning because of the problem shes been having with something in her throat for the past 2 months and im praying everything goes good and im able to see her when they said id be able too.
I miss her already.

So me and my brother are staying with my Dad till Wednesday afternoon.

Thank god i dont work.

Things could be better but whatever. I wont complain.

The people around me have really started to change. And i dont seem to have a problem with it. Surprisingly.
I may not talk to them as much as i use too but people change, people move on, its life.

And i like how i havnt had internet for the past 2 weeks and ive slowly gotten over the whole myspace thing.
THANK GOD
Im glad though.
I dont really need to know about anyones life nor does anyone need to know about mine. It just keeps me preocupied when theres nothing else to do.

I love the way you make me feel beautiful
each and every single day.

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Fridayy . Finally . One week of school already .

Hope everyone's doing good .

Tomorrow i have to go to some ladys wedding . We have to be there all day Saturday . Someone shoot me .

Im so bored .

So today turned out to be AWESOME. My mom finally took me to get my tattoo and it came out great. I got a star with flame looking lines coming out of it right below my belly button ring to the side. Did it hurt? Like a bitch. The guy asked if i was sure i wanted to get it their because it would feel really good. He was being sarcastic but yea. It hurt but it felt good. But yea, im so happy about that.

After i got out of there. I asked my mom and her bf to take me to Kaffe Krystal to see Elio since i had said i was gonna go see him. I was there for like an hour until the last band finished playing.

And now im home.

Tomorrow im waking early because my dad wants to take me and my bro to ride Go Karts somewhere in Ft. Lauderdale. So atleast we wont go to dolphin like we do every week. I still have to start my Worlds History Project too! Oh man. Thats like 7 grades so i gots to get started tomorrow i guess once i get my computer back. Even though i really like my moms laptop. Its neato.

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A girl died in 1933 by a homicidal murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewarded

Kinda freaked me out toooo.

Wasnt able to get anyone to go the the MorrisonPoe show with me so im staying home on a Saturday Night for the first time ever. But whatever. If Leo calls me up later than ill be going to some party with him.

W.e

I fucking HATE THIS.

New Digi cam.... its cool.

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These past couple of days have been.. stupid. Im tired of being nice to people, tired of getting to know people, tired of having to worry if people are pissed at me or not. You know what, fuck who ever wants to act like a fucking dick because you know what your shit is pointless. Everyone feels like complaining for the stupidest shit EVER! And you know what? Some of you people need to learn to chill out. And to get mad because im talking to some guy? Thats fucking stupid. Im not talking about one person in specific so all you know, because if not then some people might start bitching about that aswell so yes thats why im saying this isint directed towards ONE person only. But to everyone who feels like starting shit and getting pissed for dumb shit. Everyone i know getting pissed because im talking to some guy? Wdf. Why cant you just be my friend and be there for me when i need you like i try doing for all my friends? Maybe thats what you all should do. But whatever fuck it because im just so damn tired of being cool with everyone and being nice to people who all they know how to do is bitch and act stupid. You make mistakes too, and you do shit people wont like either, and you know i never get pissed at anything. Your life, not mines. But w.e. If just because im talking to someone, is going to tick you off and your going to act like a little kid than im sorry. Think about it. Its stupid too. The stupidest reason to dislike someone is because of this. But if you wish to ever stop talking to me, tell me straight up, it will bother me but its better than having someone pissed at me and me having to constantly worry about the situation. But some of you seriously need to chill. If i can be chill with all of you peoples shit than atleast be chill with me and like me for me. I hate having shit with someone. It always ruins my day when i do. And then having to talk to the person and solve whatevers going on. No. Not anymore. Why? Because i dont see a point to it anymore. Why care if people dont givea shit about me or whatevers going on? Why try making things better with someone if when you least expect it this persons gonna blow at you with dumb shit. Im friggin human too you know. And im not here to always have to please some of you. I seriously dont. I love making people happy and seeing people smile but if any of you dont want to continue talking to me than like, tell me. Because it hurts that some of you dont understand. And no matter how hard i try explaining my shit some of you just dont get it.

I have feelings to, believe it or not. Want to or not. Bring me down why? People say and do things without thinking so before any of you ever want to bring me down and make me feel like shit think about how stupid your being and whats the reason your bringing me down for. I bet you wont find one. Were in Highschool, not Elementary.

At this point, im just thinking about how the past couple of days have been and how harsh some people have been with me, and thinking about everything now, pisses me off to bad, im sure tomorrow it wont as much but right now everythings just really getting to me. Two people that i considered very good friends have cursed me out and asked for me not to call them anymore. This is so stupid. And the reason i dont really show any sign of caring is because i know that in the end these people are going to call me right back up and apologize. But treat some people the way you would want to be treated maybe one day when YOU feel shit. You wont want people bitching at you while your feeling like shit, because it would make you feel even badder so stop the crap. Lol. Arent we all suppose to be acting all happy n shit? Christmas is in a few days. Im guessing the colds got a few people going crazy in the head.

Just.. whatever. The point of this stupid entry is to let people know that i care and i want people to just be behind whatever decision i make and to just be there for me the same way im there for everyone when they need someone. Im going through so much shit right now, that its nice having someone there to talk to that you know went through the same thing a while back and can help you, and be there for you. The feeling is nice.

I just want to be cool with everyone. Sometimes i actually dont care because i get fed up. Im putting this journal entry public to show that its not actually directed towards one person.

You dont have to comment. Whatever if you want too.

I hope you all have a great Christmas. I probably wont update for awhile since whatever i tend to write pisses everyone else. But yes. I choose to write this finally because its my journal and im sorry if it bothers anyone. Im just trying to get some things of my chest. I feel like i have no friends to tell anything too. It sucks.

From now on im being honest with everyone.

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NVM about changing my journal and making it public.
Got freaked about my parents finding this shit.
lol...

Ill post this public to people though...

If anyone wants to be able to read my journal make an account or something and ill add you. Simple as that.

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